#what a difference a day makes, 24 little hours#
Saturday morning, nothing had changed, I still didn't want to go to IDAD (can't be bothered typing the full name out again) but thankfully I'm very stubborn.
As soon as i got there it was like i expected it, i couldn't make eye contact even with my friends, small talk was painful (with a capital pain) and all i wanted to do was run out of the building,
then the first service started and after a little worship Dave Campbell got up to speak
before he started sermonizing properly he decided to step out a little and said that there were 2 or 3 men, that felt like life was passing them by (he equated it to rowing while a screen played life in the background) this spoke to me a lot and so some people prayed for me.
and Wow in his first sermon (all the sermons can be found here http://emmanuel.org.uk/resources.php) he somehow managed to explain to me what I'd been trying to understand for so long, namely how i could dislike/despise/ignore God with my head and my heart and yet still be sure that God hadn't finished with me and still be sure that i would come back to Him,
I'd forgotten about my spirit, a lot of things clicked into place and my questions about how can i sing songs like blessed be your name in the desert place when my mouth, head and heart had not blessed Him became clear.
It is my spirit that worshipped God and my spirit had never stopped taking joy in God even though my body had.
This was a revelation to me and enabled me to say where my spirit goes i will make my head and heart follow.
I've always been a lover of the saying faith not feelings but don't think i had an understanding of what faith was, I think now i might have to change it to 'Faith not thoughts or feelings' (oh for thoughts to begin with an F for proper 3 point sermon material)
Then it was time for coffee, but a friend had other ideas and came to share a picture God had given him for me while they were praying for me earlier. and having tried to summarise that word to be short and pithy I think I'd do it a disservice, so maybe another post is required.
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